sickest I’ve felt this year
Posted: January 1, 2007 Filed under: Uncategorized 5 Comments »I think lack of sleep really makes the yuck much worse. We went to Asia’s shindig last night, which was very fun and we would have liked to stay and finish the game of Celebrity that we started. Alas, GMB had an 8:30am flight and we needed to leave the house a bit after 6am. So we went home right after midnight.
Oh, and can I just say how very happy I was to kick 2006 to the curb? Bastard year.
Anyway, 4 hours of sleep is simply not fun. I know that this is my future. I fear this future. I hope that this future involves the consumption of caffeine because functioning without it on no sleep is just plain painful.
We got GMB off and came home and went back to sleep. I got 2 more sleep chunks of 2 hours each but it didn’t help a lot. I feel sicker today than I have so far, I think. Really. Really. Sick. Really. Nothing-Helps kind of sick. No food is bad. Some food is bad. No escape heartburn and nausea. It is enough to make one a bit cranky.
We had to go back over to Asia’s to pick up Wes’ camera that he forgot and, to make my day that much brighter, I got pulled over for a poorly-executed left turn on my way home. I didn’t get a ticket – my momma always told me to just suck it up and be as girly-pathetic as you can and her method hasn’t failed me yet (OK, I have been pulled over a grand total of 3 times in my whole life and once was a fix-it ticket). But it was nerve-rattling anyway. Not what my digestive system needed.
My first OB appointment is tomorrow morning. I am nervous about it, but half the nerves are just about meeting a new doctor for the first time. I have realized that I am not constantly, generally anxious all the time. Sometimes I am – before I go to sleep, for sure. But on the whole, I am just pessimistic. I believe, in exact inverse proportion to reality, that this pregnancy is doomed. DOOMED. This means that while my pregnancy has about a 95% chance of succeeding, I feel about 95% certain that I will soon be experiencing another crumpled up dead baby sonogram. This is not something I constantly worry about. It’s just there. I walk around feeling just completely resigned to this.
Is this closer to neutral or further from it?
Hmmm…this seems farther from neutral in my book! You should not be on either side, if you are to adhere to the strict definition of neutral, and thinking DOOMED most certainly is taking a side! But I know you are doing the best you can. Tomorrow should be reassuring. You’ll have a sonogram and you’ll see your little baby all tucked up inside. Sonogram Highs can last a while so ride it while you can. Any thoughts on a doppler? I’m still on the fence, but leaning toward Yes.
Do you feel nauseous? Vomiting? Reflux-y? I sympathise with you babe – I was sick for 18 weeks non-stop and it’s fucking exhausting. I ended up giving in and going on anti-emetic medication because I would cry and pee myself when I vomited really hard! Foods that stayed down well for me were fruit (mango, cherry, watermelon, pineapple), rice, roasted root vegetables, mashed potato, white bread, fruit in jelly (Jello in the US?), rice pudding, flavoured milk, small amounts of chicken and generally most things that were bland and full of carbs. The things that made me sickest of all were the high-protein foods that the “experts” say improve morning sickness. If I ate red meat I would be up vomiting most of the night and salads gave me dreadful reflux. I hope you find at least a couple of foods that work for you! Lots of extra sleep helped with the nausea too – the two issues seemed directly linked.
Statistically you have already bitten the bullet – it would be dreadfully unlucky for you to have another unsuccesful pregnancy. If your pregnancy was a horse I would bet money on it!
I think that not being constantly anxious is a huge step. It would be for me at least. Resignation to possible doom is better than constant paralyzing anxiety any day in my book.
((hugs)) Good luck with your new Ob, take care, and happy new year!
hopefully it will be a real wiggler. Then, like me, you can go from the panic of worrying that something might happen to the real panic of- “holy sh*t, I am having a kid…”
There are still days when I poke at my stomach to get it to jump around a little.
Oh, how the sick sucks. I have to tell you that I too found that not getting enough sleep was a recipe for the sick, and nothing would help then. Even after the sickness was almost entirely gone, it could come back a bit if I didn’t get enough sleep. Eating, as much as it sucked, helped too. But besides those two general things, nothing else much helped. I ate a lot of ginger – raw even, and told myself it was helping but I still felt like ass.