worry
Posted: June 16, 2006 Filed under: Uncategorized 5 Comments »Does anyone else in my fertility circle ever worry about this?
We’ve been at this a long time, y’all. There was the big, giant first wave of FF pregnancies last summer. Since then…. not much going on. The rest of us have basically been trudging on together for a year now.
So… what happens if just one of us (of those of us still trying, I mean, obviously) gets pregnant and successfully gets a baby out of it?
I mean, I know what will actually happen. We’ll get a bunch of green bouncy men on Fertility Fiend (misspelling purposeful). We’ll post our cute little peesticks. Everyone will rejoice. Lo, there will be much rejoicing.
But then is everyone going to secretly hate that person and we’re not all going to be friends anymore?
I mean, I know we are still friends with the ones who have babies. But I personally don’t read their blogs as obsessively as I read those of my fellow in-the-trenches types. OK. There are exceptions. But still.
I’m just being honest.
I worry about losing our little gang.
Stupid but true.
Bri, I won’t abandon you if you get pregnant. Promise.
I worry about this every fricken month! Each month I am certain that it is *my* turn to get the fucking green bouncing things & instead I get (((hugs))) & “so sorry”. At this point I won’t lie- I will be very very jealous of anyone in our group that gets knocked up. But at the same point I will be MORE thrilled for them than I am for all of the other positive pee stick people. I kind of see us like super hero friends fighting the evil “Easily Preggo” & “I have 5 kids that I can’t take care of” wenches. I want to be the one that wins the fight, but if any of my other super hero friends kicks “Easliy Preggo’s” ass I will be thrilled as well.
It just might take me a week or so to come around to that.
But don’t worry- I just listed all of my phantom preggo symptoms which we ALL know means that I won’t be getting a +. I totally jinxed myself.
i think about it too…but i don’t feel the same pangs of jealousy when someone gets pg on their 5th try as opposed to the first or second. and it also depends on how they handle themselves. Do they just go all googoo eyed and forgetful of the chicks in the trenches or do they find a good balance?
so in other words i’ll be truly happy for any of the veterans get pg.
I agree with Cali & Sophia; that although there will inevitably still be “but why isn’t it my turn yet/now?” thoughts, it will be a lot easier to bear when it’s another “veteran” than when it’s someone just starting out.
I think that those of us who have been trying for a while are much more sensitive about the whole issue, and for one thing, won’t just be all happy/rejoicing/forgetting everyone else, but also, we’ll probably be rather more realistic about the potential pitfalls of early pregnancy. Personally, I know that I will only ever announce a pregnancy with a “hope nothing goes wrong” kind of proviso. Sad but true.
We spent 3 years trying for Malka – a year and a half of medicated DS IUI cycles (15 of um!) and a year + waiting through adoption hell. I actually started temping and charting way before then.
I’m still friends with those who aren’t there yet, and those that are.
It still sucks when you can’t just catch that stupid fricking brass ring, but your friends won’t abandon you.
And if they do, to be honest, they aren’t your friends…
So yeah, we’ll all be here, reading, one way or the other (hopefully reading the new pregnant blog, but still reading).